A message from your loving sister

Your Lord doesn't hate you,
nor does HE intent to torture you,
He knows what HE's doing,
all this pain is because HE's protecting you from something,
something really dangerous.

But you don't understand that,
for your knowledge is very limited,
all you have to do is to have complete trust in HIM,
that HE knows what HE's doing,
that He's doing this because HE loves you.

Just like the doctor who is performing surgery on you.
The procedure is no doubt very painful,
but all of that pain is so that he can cure your disease,
so that you can be healthy,
so that you can remain alive.

A student of life

At this point in time,

I'm learning about prioritizing,

I'm learning about time-management,

I'm learning about responsibility,

I'm learning about sacrifice,

I'm learning about letting go,
I'm learning about forgiveness,
I'm learning about patience,
I'm learning about perseverance,
I'm learning about gratitude,

Most importantly,
I'm learning about The One who created me, and myself, as one of His creations.

If this life is a place of learning,
then I'm a student of life . . .

When this test passes

When this test passes,
will you be able to tell it like a story?!

A bed time story you often read to the kids before they go to sleep?!

When this test passes,
will you be able to watch it like a movie?!

A drama you often watch because you want to be able to laugh and get your mind off something?!

When this test passes,
will you be able to remember what you have done, or you could have done to have a better ending?!

When this test passes,
will you have regret for having gone through it?!
or

Will it make you happier for the test has turned you into a better person than before?!

When this test passes,
will you be able to write stories like any types of stories you've read?!
Stories you will remember as your reference for future test.

The One Who Was and Will Always Be - Omer Chaudhry

~The ONE Who Was and Will Always Be~

I wonder when I look above
With a sigh of love...
At the starry sky, with tears of joy
When will this life come to an end?
For I can’t wait and I want to see
The ONE who was and will always be

It’s true this life does have a reason
But the world for me is still a prison
So no wonder what I have in here
That void inside will always be
For I can’t wait and I want to see
The ONE who was and will always be

I try to avoid it but I end up sinning
My heart feels heavy and my head starts spinning
If this is the pain I feel in this world
Then how harsh would the hell fire be?
The thought of it makes me hate myself
But despair of HIS mercy I’ll never be
For I can’t wait and I want to see
The ONE who was and will always be

So I turn to HIM, put my head on the ground
My lost soul as if suddenly found
His remembrance puts my heart at peace
And brings a happy thought to mind
If this is the satisfaction of this world
How much pleasure one would in the Heaven find?
And then I can’t wait and I want to see
The ONE who was and will always be

Bro. Omer Chaudhry

Paradise is my home

I don't belong here,

I want to go home . . .

But where's my "home" anyway?!

The fact that in this dunia, there's no such thing as home,

Home is where we can feel at peace, serenity from within . . .

And I don't get that in this world . . .

That's when I realized, there's only one place I could call home,

And that place is paradise . . .

Keep on walking

Sometime, you really think that this is the end of your journey and you feel like giving up,

but guess what, please don't! Keep on walking . . .
As long as you keep asking for His help and remain patient, God will guide you to find your way.

And one thing for sure, this is not the end. This is just the new of a beginning.

The end is when the angle comes and take away your soul,

it is the time when you'll be accountable for what you've done in this world.

So, be prepared for you don't want to end up in hell for eternity . . .

There are times in my life

There are times in my life when I could finish bags of chips or boxes full of chocolates in just one night. 

There are times in my life when I just can't close my eyes because my mind wouldn't stop thinking.

There are times in my life where my thoughts are filled with worries.

There are times in my life when I feel like this is the end of my journey.

There are times in my life when I want to give up, but
There are times in my life when I just decide that I have to keep on going . . .

The Stab

If I let go, will You take me higher?

Above grief, want, loss.

Above all that I've ever known.

(Yasmin Mogahed)

Just hear and please listen

Have you ever wished that there's someone who just listen to you talking right now?!

no questions,

no judgement

no words of encouragement,

nor words of pity,

none, nothing at all . . .

just silence and wide open ears to hear and listen to you talking?!
Have you ever wished there's that kind of person?!
Guess what, I have . . .

I'm not quite there yet

If you really know me,

you'll be surprised.

I'm not the person you know today.

I'm far from what you've imagined.

The person you know today, is just part of me who I wish to be many years ago.

But I'm not quite there yet.

I still have many years to go.

Until then, I'm hoping you remember who I am today.

And when I look back, I'm hoping I remember that person I used to be.

A story behind every dreamers

Have you ever been underestimated?!

Nobody believes that you could do it?!

When you tell them about your dreams, they laugh at you,

and ask, "is this some kind of jokes or something?!"

Then this time you're convinced, maybe this is a joke.

Asking yourself, who am I kidding?! Me?! This is so impossible!

But you're so sure of God's power.

Everything's possible in His hand.

He's The Greatest of all!

And all you have to do is to work really hard to show God that you want it.

Even if it doesn't work out in the form you want it, God will give it to you in a better form.

But what stops you from reaching your dream, you ask yourself?!

Maybe it's still a new thing to you, you're still scared.

Fears of the unknown terrify you.

The hurts, the humiliation, the craziness, you're just not ready for this.

But these questions keep popping in your mind, when are you gonna be ready at all if you're not ready now? And really, what's there to lose?

I wonder why

I wonder why there are people out there who don't think when they speak,
who jokes around excessively,
who never try to control their anger,

I wonder why there are people out there who don't think that their words, jokes, or even anger might have hurt or affect other people's self esteem,

I wonder why those people behave that way . . .

Is it because they don't know?!

Is it because they are not sensitive enough to know?!

Or, is it because they just simply don't care?!

I wonder why. . .

Once upon a time

Once upon a time, there was a girl who wasn't so focused in school,
the girl who didn't have a specific dream in her mind,
the girl who didn't really know what she wanted to be when she grew up.
When she was asked,
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
she didn't have an answer then.
She started to look for an answer,
"Yeah, what do I want to be when I grow up?" she asked.
She needed to find something, just something to fill in the blank, she thought.
And so, her journey began. . .


***To be continued

When was the last time?

When was the last time you ever been relaxed,

without worrying what others think of you?

how you look like?

how stupid you might sound?

When was the last time you ever been relaxed,

having no pressure to make a conversation?

having no pressure to entertain others?

When was the last time you ever heard your breath, peacefully,

without worrying people might judge you?

even at the sound of your own breath?

When was the last time you ever accept yourself, for who you are,
without comparing yourself to others?
just accepting what God has given you?

When was the last time you ever been like this?

I wonder

I wonder why we worry so much when we have God, the only One protector.

Is it because we are unsure of His supreme power?

Or is it because we are unsure of His true existence?

I wonder why we feel lonely, even when we are alone, when God is near to us.

Even nearest to our own jugular vain?

When we have Him watching us 24/7?

I wonder why we are scared to death, when we have Him as our saviour.

When we know, He will protect us from anything.

I wonder why we feel so unloved, when we have Ar-Rahman, the Most merciful of all.

Most beloved to us than our own parents.

I wonder why we're scattered when things don't go they way we want it, when we have Al-Alim, The most knowing of all.

I wonder why we're looking so much for acceptance of this world, when we have the One who will accept us no matter how we look on the outside.

I wonder why.

Save me - Yasmin Mogahed

I have nothing but Your generosity to put my hope in.
Nothing.
For I stand at Your door holding broken scraps . . .
and yet You open.
Save me from this storm.
I am the most helpless of all Your slaves.
And I'm lost,
wandering in the middle of a forest trying to find my way.
But all the  trees look the same,
and each path just leads back to the beginning.
No one finds their way out of this forest - except whom You save.
Save me.
For truly, truly I cannot save myself.

Silence

Sometime, what we need isn't words.
It isn't words of pity,
neither words of encouragement.
Sometime, what we need is simply silence.
A brief moment of silence is worth of a thousand spoken words.

Hey, you and i

Hey you and i,
stay there!
Don't get too close.
Cause if you and i do, we might escape, and run.
Run, as far away as possible.

Hey you and i,
stay there!
Don't get too close.
Just stay there, and watch us in silence.
It's not because you and i dislike us.
We're just a little afraid that you and i might hurt, our little precious heart . . .

My Dream, why are thou so far away?

My dream, why are thou so far away?

They say, when you dream, dream big!
Now, I have a dream, a real one!
My dream is big! Huge in fact!
I think about it every second, every minute, every hour, every day!
Guess what?!
I can't no longer sleep.
And I blame they for telling me that!

I plan, plan, and keep planning.
It seems so far away still.
Why does it feel that way?!
I can't no longer be patient.
I want it now!
Oh Lord, why can't I have it now?
Please tell me the reasons why?

I'm too tired waiting!
God, can I please have it? Like now?
I want it now! And exactly in the way I want it!
I know it's wrong to dictate You, my Lord.
Please, please, teach me how to be patient and to be not so bossy.
I'm not the boss, You are!

Oh Lord,
Who I am to criticize You?
I didn't create this world, You did!
Who am I to decide what's best for me?
I didn't create me, You did!
Who am I to say I deserve this dream?
When it's really out of Your mercy that You give in the first place!


This is my test, to be patient, to trust Your plan, to be grateful with all the things You've given.
When in fact, I deserve nothing!Oh Lord,
The King of all kings!
The King of the world!
Please teach me to be patient, to be grateful with all the things You've given,
and most important, to trust You, with Your plan.

***PS: I took this picture in the sidewalk close to my house. Isn't it awesome! ; )

Nameless - Yasmin Mogahed

Nameless
By: Yasmin Mogahed

There’s salvation in admitting defeat.
The peace of prostration.
Just stay still in that position,
With your head lowered.
Freeze.
Wait.
Stay humbled.
Wait.
Stay lowered. Until He raises you.

They’ve searched the world
for what can be found in the quietest corners of a room.
They search a million words for what can only be found in silence.
They create a million names for the nameless.
For what can only be found in wordless thought.
Nameless states.

Stop letting it own you.
Let it go.
Let it go for Him and He will honor you.
He will raise you.

I looked on every street corner,
Inside every store window,
In and through both heartache and beauty,
Inside the story within the story,
Behind the sheet music.

Names. We’re always looking for names.
We try to name all of it.
We think that if only we could name each chain,
they would all break.

Maybe I need to live between.
Between the words, the heart,
the space between earth and sky.
Maybe I could live there.
In the space between knowledge and understanding.
Between love and letting go.
In the place where it stops hurting to be so far away.
The place where you’re already there.
In the nameless.

He said, “She feels like a habit I’ll never break.”
Break.
Break, so you can break.
The strong fall so they can stand.
Fall.

There’s salvation in admitting defeat.
Adam (AS) admit defeat.
Yunus (AS) admit defeat.
Nuh (AS) admit defeat.
Ayoub (AS) admit defeat.
Muhammad (SAW) admit defeat.
How can you claim to be strong?