Welcome 2016

Saya sudah lama tidak menulis, mungkin hampir setahun bahkan. Jari-jemari saya sudah mulai terasa kaku. Tidak banyak yang berubah dari kehidupan saya. Saya masih saja di sibukkan dengan kegiatan-kegiatan lama. Beberapa resolusi di tahun-tahun sebelumnya sudah terealisasi, dan ada beberapa yang juga belum. Harapan terbesar saya di tahun 2016 yaitu bisa terus memperbaiki diri.

Saya baru sadar kalau saya tidak menulis apa-apa di tahun 2015. Bahkan saya seperti vakum dari blog selama setahun. Entahlah, mungkin saya butuh berbenah sementara. Mencoba menata hati, menyusun kepingan puzzle kehidupan saya. Mencoba mencari arti dari setiap yang terjadi. Melankolis memang, haha. Tapi yang pasti, saya baik-baik saja.

Welcome 2016. Tidak ada keinginan yang muluk-muluk kali ini, hanya ingin terus menulis :)

Hey there 2014! :D

Banyak dari teman-teman saya yang menuliskan new year's resolution di tahun baru ini. Mereka menuliskan life goals dan harapan-harapan ke depan yang menurut saya hal yang cukup positive dan memotivasi. Jujur saja, saya pun ingin melakukan hal yang sama. Hanya saja ada sedikit kendala, banyak hal di tahun-tahun sebelumnya yang masih belum tercapai. Jadi resolusi 2014 bisa langsung di check di kategori new year 2013, tentu nya dengan sedikit improvisasi.

Apa yang sebenarnya saya harapkan di tahun 2014 ini?

Banyak hal tentu nya! Saya ingin ini, ingin itu. Ingin bisa seperti ini dan seperti itu. Ingin travel kesini dan kesitu. Pokok nya banyak mau nya deh! Hihihi. Tapi hal yang paling saya inginkan di tahun 2014 nanti nya adalah bisa lebih bersyukur, bisa lebih bersabar dan bisa lebih ridha dengan ketetapan ALLAH! Karna saya melihat diri saya di 2013 bahkan di tahun-tahun sebelumnya, begitu banyak mau nya sampai lupa berterimakasih pada sang Khalik akan nikmat-nikmat yang telah Ia berikan. Tidak cukup bersabar ketika keinginan saya tidak langsung Ia penuhi, dan tidak cukup ridha ketika keinginan-keinginan tersebut Ia ganti. Jadi postingan kali ini lebih tepat di sebut muhasabah diri di banding resolusi :D

Saya juga ingin memperbaiki bacaan Al-Quran saya yang masih amburadul. Keinginan terbesar saya adalah bisa menghapal Al-Quran. Man jadda wajadda. Siapa yang bersungguh-sungguh, ia pasti bisa kan?
Saya akan mulai menghapal juz 30, yang mudah-mudah saja dulu. Hihihi

Dan ada satu hal lagi yang sangat-sangat saya harapkan untuk bisa tercapai, karna saya merasa hal inilah yang menjadi penghambat untuk mencapai keinginan-keinginan saya yang lain. Tapi tentu nya saya ingin tetap ridha di atas segalanya. Jadi ketika sudah berusaha dengan maksimal, tapi tetap tidak tercapai juga, saya ingin bisa ridha atas keputusan Nya.

Mohon doa nya ya teman-teman. Semoga saya menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik dari saya yang kemarin. Saya tidak berjanji untuk tidak berbuat salah, saya hanya bisa memastikan bahwa saya akan terus belajar dari kesalahan-kesalahan saya.

Anyway, welcome 2014! ;)

A new of a beginning - Winter Semester 2013

To be honest, I'm a little nervous and excited at the same time. Tomorrow is my first day of school after  holiday. I'm afraid I'd make the same mistakes I've done last semester. But hopefully not. I'm also excited, wanting to know how's the end of my journey this time. Years from now. Insya ALLAH.
I'm hoping that I'll be actively involved academically and socially. I really wish there's no time to fool around anymore :/
And why does it feel like the end?! I've felt like this years ago when I first entered High school. But guess what, when I thought it's the end, I was wrong. It's just a new of a beginning.
And tomorrow is not the end, though it feels like it. Tomorrow is a start of putting back the pieces of my life together. It's a new semester to me after getting two academic warnings. And I've learned my lesson, which is to not run away from things anymore. This time, I want to fight my battle. Fears are meant to be conquered, not to run away from.
Also, I've learned to prioritize. This time, no matter what, ALLAH is the first priority in my life. I'm hoping to never delay my salah. I'll try to pray on time, and if possible, I'd add some sunnah. Not to mention, Quran will be my best buddy, Insya ALLAH. Also, I'm still working on my time management, which I have to say is still bad :/
Anyway, wish me luck guys and please pray for me ;)

2013

Hi guys! It's me again. Of course, it's my blog! Lol. Many people write something on the new year's eve. You know how they wish that the new year's gonna be different than the previous years. I thought, why not write something too?! It's not a crime really. LOL
And I do wish 2013 will be different you know. In a good way of course. I'm not saying that I won't make mistakes. I can't promise you that. What I'll promise is that, I'll try my best to learn from my mistakes and hopefully I'll be a better person as a result.

Anyway, it's new year! Should I say happy new year?! I should probably not, cuz we're only allowed to celebrate Islamic new year. Anyway, it's 2013! Am I excited?! Of course! Duh! To be exact, I'm curious wanting to see how my future's gonna be like (Insya ALLAH if I'm still alive of course).

Sooo, talking about new year's resolution, here are some things that I wish to come through in 2013 ;)

Winter
1. ALLAH is my priority.
I hope I can pray the 5 daily prayers on time. Hoping to add some sunnah as well. Tahajud is a must! Dzuha! And many other sunna prayers as well.

2. I'm gonna be serious about learning Qur'an.
-Learn Qur'an with Tahsin member
-Teach cousins
One day, I'm also hoping to read quran like international Qoriah.
***If ALLAH wills, this is really gonna happen guys!>,<

3. I wish that I would be focused in this coming winter semester.
I wish that I would try my best to get As for my classes. It doesn't matter if I don't get As. What matter is that I try my best and let ALLAH takes care of the rest. Cuz ALLAH is Al-alim, the most knowledgeable of all! He created this world guys! He knows better than us! Who are really?!

4. I wish to be an active member of MSA.
I wish we're really gonna do Islamic awareness >,<

5. I wish to be an active member of PSC

6. Work part-time

***I wish to master time-management

Spring
1. ALLAH is still my priority

2. Hoping to start learning tilawah.
-Still teaching my cousins
-Hoping to teach Qur'an to Indonesian kids >,<

3. Hoping to study hard and smart to get As

4. Activities on campus might be off, therefore I'm gonna look for other activities.
-Writing workshops?

5. Work

***I wish to enter WMB as well. Pray for me guys >,<

Summer
I'm not sure what I'm gonna do during summer. Probably working?! Or I could continue learning tilawah?! Or I could read driving book so that I can get a driving liaison?! Or join cooking club?! Or join writing club?! Hahaha, I'm not sure okay.

Anyway, I'll keep you posted about my life. I'm also gonna tell you what happens cuz really this is just my plan, not ALLAH's. And of course, ALLAH is the best of planner.
I'll see you soon, Insya ALLAH ;)